Collecting my winnings.

Okay, so I guess I'm kind of doing this backwards. I think I'm doing the 'bio-blog' afterwards as some things I don't really know how to express using words in the way that I want to.
I don't even know why I'm doing this - I guess I just want myself to be heard, people to read my opinions, my story. If someone was to ask me my ultimate goal in life, my answer would always be 'to help others.' It always has been. I know that I don't want anyone else to ever have to go through what I have had to go through and I want people to be able to get the help that they need. Sometimes, that's not from professionals or from close family and friends - I know a lot of things that helped me were things I read on the Internet. Other people's stories, inspirational quotes, self-help pages. I'll put more in about that at a later time.
So I guess that's my goal here. If one person reads my story and it helps them to feel only even the tiniest bit better, then my goal will have been accomplished.

So it's only just really hit me - I finish college soon after one of the biggest battles of my life and I am leaving with three distinctions in Health and Social Care. This means I can go to Uni (probably next year) and do almost anything I want to do. I have struggled so hard due to ongoing private issues and I've come out of the end of college and I feel the biggest amount of relief and weight lifted off my shoulders. It feels like spitting in the face of life and saying, "HA, I'VE WON, WHO IS THE ONE LAUGHING NOW?"
I feel like I can't effectively express how accomplished this makes me feel because of my writing style. I feel like the way I speak and the way I write always sounds depressing in some way, I think it's because of my old journals and it's just the way I'm used to writing.

I have only half of an assignment left to do. And then it will be time to collect my winnings. Thank you, life, I'll be taking what I deserve and taking control of the wheel. I will move forward with strength and I WILL beat this, thank you very much.